let's see now...we got physics, chinese and maths homework for the holidays...on top of that, we also got econs and pw to get over with while at the same time try to study for our mid-years...i don't know how others are coping with the increase in stress levels...i now feel so guilty about going for the cjc charity bowl on monday....i knew that the exams weren't over and that i still had a lot of homework which i have not started yet...oh well, it is for a good cause after all...but i toally sucked that day after pre-camp where we carried a log around the school...by the time i got to the alley, my arm was seriously dead...so my games were pretty bad...the scores were definitely worse then the last time i played (which was like 2 years ago)

i met david at tiong bahru and then proceeded to the alley with him after lunch and that was when i became totally shocked, stunned, and just totally lost concentration...if i knew that you were going to be there, i would have just asked for a substitute for my team and i could go home without you noticing me...maybe that substitute could even play better than me...i am not saying that you distract me but its just that i am still uncertain of my feelings which have been on an emotional rollercoaster which i can't stop...perhaps it is hormones or perhaps its something else, that i have no idea...now that i think of it, i think that i have not reached the level of maturity at which i would be comfortable around you...yet ever so often we bump into each other at school or in this case, the bowling alley...well perhaps it is a cruel trick played by fate that we are not meant to be together...if so, then i'll accept this fate but will continue to stand beside you whenever you need me...that i can promise as a friend...


















fate...it can bring people together yet it can keep some apart...oh the irony...