WOW.. how long has it been since i last blogged?almost a month has passed.. i guess its because i don't feel like blogging partly due to the fact that i'm busy ever since school reopened.. There are many things i wish to blog about..

let's start with school.. well its great to be able to see my friends and teachers again.. and the class IR is up and running as usual.. i think we had a massive haul of cards this year.. i think that we have at least 15 decks in class and i got 4 of them yay.. too bad i'm not opening two of them until somewhere in the middle of the year.. its fun to play dai dee and bridge with them.. especially with hubert the cheater..

well i knew it was impossible to avoid her forever and yes we ended up meeting each other again.. till today, i have met her thrice.. once was because the co-op had owed her money and i went to return it to her. the next was when she accompanied her friend to the co-op to enquire about the lit texts and buy some stuff.. that was the one which really left an impression.. throughout the buying i just ignored her and focused on her friend instead.. but when they were about to leave, she said, "hey" and waved at me.. it was up to her whether she would acknowledge my existence even though i was completely daoing her, and she waved, which did also out of courtesy. But why did she do it? Didn't i say that we weren't friends anymore?

Somehow i am still confused.. was it possible that while i hated her for breaking my heart, somewhere deep inside i still loved her? if so than is it possible that i have fallen for someone else and while i still have feelings for her?



i wish to solve this by myself..
no matter how long it's gonna take..
walking down the path of despair,
am i near the end?

I pray..