finally the common tests are over.. i thought it would never end.. anyway, now that it's over, i am looking forward to my birthday which is in a couple of weeks time and another friend(s) birthday are also around the corner close to mine.. i never dreamed that i could have survived it but here i am and after getting my A level results for chinese, i think i may have just lost my will to game and go out and stuff.. its not that i didn't pass but i seriously was expecting more than what i got.. yes i know that there are people who deserved to pass but did not do so and many would say that i shouldbe thankful for what i got.. but a B for my last chinese paper in my lifetime is not what i'm going to tell my grandfather when i die.. and the grade for my family's chinese is most likely to go down when my brother takes his O levels next year..

and i can't guarantee the results of my common tests either.. i hope that i can pass but i am not too optimistic with my performance.. perhaps i wasn't suited to staying in cjc after all.. why the hell did i choose to stay back because of her? now i really regret my actions.. even though we're on talking terms now, it still seems that.. better not elaborate.. it'll only make me feel worse.. i guess that at least its a start..
i swear.. we're even worse than most couples given the amount of times we have broken and made up our friendship.. i can't imagine what would happen if i were to actually get into a relationship with her..

enough about her.. went out with my friends after the release of results yesterday and also met up with some of my seniors along the way.. travelled downtown where we played games at the mind cafe at prinsep street before going to plaza singapura for kfc and by the time i finally reached home, it was already 10.. and i finally went to sleep at 12 midnight.. woke up at 7 this morning before going to tanjong pagar for a full day workshop where we laughed a lot.. and "a lot" is a serious understatement.. just got home not too long ago before i found out that my aunt just invited herself over to my house.. seriously, some people have no eq whatsoever..

i wish that i would be able to celebrate my birthday with someone special this year but it seems that it may be a rather daunting task.. but i shall not give up and in the worst case scenario, i'll just have to go out with my "brothers" johan or david, although it won't be as "romantic" or something.. o well, 18th birthdays are supposed to be special right?









the best birthday present,
would be the day spent with You..