ok after blogging about the mumbai attacks, may the deceased rest in peace.

the attacks made me realise that this world is indeed corrupted and that there is a need for people with the power to change it to change it for the better rather than waiting for the human race to destroy each other. on the issue of power, one wonders how much power does an individual really have in helping to change the world. anyone can change their society or country for all it takes is a determination and the initiative to make a difference. but when it comes to the macro-scale of human civilisation, an individual is not very powerful, for power is concentrated in the hands of certain individuals. it is these people who can change the world and it is this group of individuals which is needed to steer the world from its own destruction. of course there is also a need for good judgement on their parts but one would expect them to have this given the fact that we have made them into the powerful individual that they are when we gave them the power. i digress... these attacks made me realise that as an individual, i am relatively weak at this point of time. i ask myself if one day in the future i am given that power, would i use it? i definitely would. as of right now, i will work hard towards attaining that power so that i can put an end to conflict in this world and revert it back to the clean slate that it was prior to the corruption. one only wonders about the means which one should go about to achieve this state, for the use of violence to stop violence would only lead to more sorrow and the use of diplomacy has also been shown to be ineffective against the violent. on a more personal side, i guess i'm beginning to lighten up a little, thanks to the people who have helped me through this somewhat trying time. i thank you. we'll just have to see what happens tomorrow then .

leaving in 3 days...