well, after hearing that pple actually read my blog then.. um it seems that it wasn't as dead as i thought it was, so i'm going to try and update more often, to give u all stuff to gossip about..



"visited" my grandfather today at mandai, and made an honest and straightforward account for my lousy A level chinese grades.. apologised to him before shifting to the side for the others to pay their respects.. even though i only knew him for about 6 years, his face is still unmistakable on the marble covering his remains.. as i saw my grandmother pay her respects, i couldn't help but let some of my tears start to pile since it is never easy to lose someone you love and carry on living for the time that she has.. it has been 12 years.. i can't remember how the wake was like.. only vague details, after that all i knew was that my grandmother started to bring me to and from kindergarten, something which my grandfather always did. did not understand it fully back then but all i could remember about the night we got the message was that it was rather late and i was watching tv with my grandfather and aunt before we got a phone call from a relative in malaysia where my grandfather was visiting.. after that i remembered seeing my father returning from china with my mom and brother in a taxi. The whole family got together for once other than just for chinese new year..

so many years ago, yet the memory remains rather fresh.. its a part of my past i can't forget and i hope not to. someday i'll bring my kids there and show them who their great-grandfather is, a man who lived through turbulent times in human history and survived, a teacher, a great chinese chess player and most of all, a grandfather who always took care of his grandchildren.

i don't think that he would have wanted to live in this age in a world which is spiralling to its own destruction through war and conflict.. i remember him as wise though, and am certain that if he was still alive, he would have known what needed to be done in the world. I too have been searching for an answer and seem to have found it.. everybody fights for something or someone, or rather to protect that someone or something, be it money, reputation, power or anything else, those who do not are just dying for nothing, deaths would not end a conflict but it seems that some countries don't understand this and the world moves closer to its own destruction.



i don't think he would have wanted me to get a B for A level chinese, he would have most likely killed me.. that's why i have been feeling rather bad all this while.. thank goodness for friends who stood by me..



my parents came back for qing ming since it is a holiday there. so i'm quite happy to be able to spend this weekend with them.. had a super filling lunch and did not eat dinner.. seriously full.. will try to see if we can go to suntec tommorrow so that i can go get kane's wrath and play on the wcg computer.. can't wait.. my father suggested eating japanese tommorrow so i think he' going exactly where i want to..



jap food is healthy for you..

jap girls are even prettier ;)

*smiles cheekily*