i got the consolation prize for the poetry competition organised by the school's editorial club and won for myself a $20 voucher from borders. won't be keying in any of my new poems to my computer as the microsoft word program is causing my laptop to crash for some unknown reason whenever i want to run it. completed the new poem but i don't feel that it's appropriate to show this to her as it is a rather sad poem meant for the day when i eventually get my heart broken once again. it's quite a pity that i have to plan for the worst case scenario. it only shows the level of self-esteem and self-confidence that i have. after being rejected quite a number of times and when compared with guys who are much better and more eligible for the full 6 years in secondary school and in junior college, one can only guess how low that can be. since time immemorial, it's been rather obvious that charm, physique and a whole lot of other things come into play. really does seem like i'm a despo doesn't it? well i've learnt my lesson and therefore have decided to take things easy as compared to last year. i'm a rather relaxed person now as compared to before. haha. but honestly speaking, i suck at keeping secrets, especially if they are my own and i'm also rather lousy at lying. hahaha

the current state of my face,
is the result of,
the mask that i wear,
to hide my feelings and emotions,
from you and everyone else.