well the holidays are ending soon and i practically used the holidays to relax after the first half of the prelims were over. it is mentally taxing for such a major exam. thank goodness that i've got friends whom i can talk to online as well as play cards with lol. gained a few levels at zany bridge ^^. another thing which put me off was the constant renovations going on in my block. my blog is currently undergoing lift "upgrading".. don't know if it can be called upgrading especially since upgrading something is with the intention to IMPROVE it. based on the other lift which has been "upgraded", i would have to say that money for the town councils could be better spent on other projects and that the town council is only wasting money on such projects which only provides a new lift landing on the 2nd floor, in addition to a smaller, much slower lift. in addition, i now have a new alarm clock which never fails to wake me up at 9am in the morning, courtesy of my neighbour upstairs who now has some drilling and hammering going on in his house. even on a saturday when people want to sleep in. with so much noise, how can one possibly study? maybe i should have dragged myself to school to study then yet again, i don't like the complete silence in school the last time i went there to study and there is a high chance that i'll just end up talking with my friends there.

speaking about friends, i kinda miss them in the one week that we do not have to go to school and there's only about 5 weeks left in the school year before we go on study break before the A levels. this means that i've only got around that amount of time left with my friends before the A levels and finally graduation night. like a friend of mine once said, the longer i drag this, the more unsure and "radical" my feelings will get. at this point of time, i do not wish to confess my true feelings for her but then yet again, my heart is screaming and yelling at me to do it. i have no idea as to what to do now when i look at her. i get rather speechless and i feel as though i can't breathe. another reason is that i do not wish to distract her from her studies although i think that this is highly unlikely since she is rather focused. and at the same time, i also don't want a repeat of last year. and like i've said, i'm willing to sacrifice my feelings as long as she won't get distracted, so i've got to walk down the solitary path once again.

i yearn to reveal the last stanza,
but now's not the time
i just care too much for you.