response to anon

i guess i decided to type this as a post since it would be too long as a reply on the chatbox. when i meant not returning feelings in a manner worthy of a person, i meant it as even if you reject a person, please do so in a subtle manner and not by suddenly announcing to the whole world that you're in a relationship and even worse, with his/her friend. these type of things do damage to a person's self respect. then again, being returned with the same feelings would of course be the ideal situation. but of course, this world is far from perfect. and just because i recognise God's love for us, it doesn't mean that i love everyone else. as proven, there are people on this planet who deserve to be treated otherwise. i do not and refuse to say that i love everyone for there are scum which soil this supposedly pure planet. and i'm not referring to the person whom i used to like. my own personal experience has proven that there are indeed some people who should be wiped off from society. it doesn't matter if we're made in His image or not. in fact the things these people insult Him since they're made in His image and hence they should not exist. that's why there's a need for law. it's to erase these problems from society and i am grateful to be given the power to change things, but that's another story for another time.

for now, these are my true feelings, even if you do manage to convince me to give up my hatred, which would of course go away given time, i will definitely not forget this insult to my person. that's the part of my humanity which still exists. maybe that's what makes me human right now. the inability to just forgive and forget even if idealistically i am supposed to do so. perhaps i'm being selfish and i do admit that in the eyes of anyone else, it may be that way. fine then, i recognise the person's right to choose but then again, that person does not need my recognition to carry on loving the person. for even if i recognise it, nothing will change.. not the present way that things are (the two of them together) and much less my feelings. after all one doesn't need approval or recognition from another to love another person. but it doesn't mean that i have to be happy about it..



indulgeo non alieno